Bringing the rough ideas together for A#2 CIAE week of 1- 5 November

After a long chat with Sam, I have finally realised why I am finding slight barriers in my process. Its because I already have an established way of producing my creative practice and this does not show development in-the way the course requires it. 
So much of my practice is based within my head or spoken through. Its the only way to keep up with it. Mood boards, stickers of random pieces of paper, a word - all have sought to remind me of that specific moment when I was considering it, I have streamlined my development to be quick to reference, and easy to develop with trawling ! ​So to slow it down, I have screen shot my process and will comment below:

Least week, I recorded the three pieces onto Garageband, this is a familiar programme to me, I wanted to see what the pieces felt and sounded like when spoken outloud. I was keen that the pieces needed to be in my voice, as I would have spoken them, no drama aside from the words written. This would also allow me to see if teh words flowed or that the words used - as I write then dont edit them feeling that they are then not a true recollection of the mind at that specific time. 

These tracks are in an earlier blog.
To explore furthser these writings were chosen because they represent a passing of time, three very different mindsets over that time.
19.09.21 Spain  - prior to my father passing but knowing it was imminent, at the hospital, on the beach , asking the sky or the divine or the universe for answers but directing it to my Dad.
11.10.21 Leigh On Sea -Two Tree Island  - Approximately 3 weeks after his passing, having been released from the 10 day Isolation the before  ( I isolated with my mom) and 3 weeks before the funeral
20.10.21 - Benfleet Essex, 13 months after his passing and a representative of the ever changing seasons, and the check in chat I have with my world. 
They also hold personal memory. I can remember where I was, what i was doing and how I felt in that moment. They also give a good indication of the different stages of loss. There are many writings, but these pieces seemed important and a true reflection of the journeys and show a representation of the times, although if when they are put into a single piece they do not flow, I will explore others that capture times that are prevalent. I have then acknowledged that these pieces recorded may need to be edited as they are trains of thought so therefore can be a starting point, without lessening the moment at the time. I may consider a 4th piece as I am returning to Spain at the End of November and will be able to film while there.

​ I find that writing is a way to slow my mind down. I tend to capture moments for myself, it is vulnerable place to be in sharing these inner workings of my mind with people. 

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The next stage was to find the images that I wished to portray this, sky and birds are a running theme through my thoughts when writing at present, on the beach on my day of return to the UK after my father had passed, I played the music I had played to him in hospital. This is why I was so drawn to IN THE FOG  Julan  Tateisi at New Contemporaries. It was almost a call to see how I would express myself, obviously I have to remain true to my piece, yet be original in thought. 
Music features quite heavily, there are certain tunes that are residual in memory of my dad, and that time of his passing, I am considering how I might want to incorporate this. 

Each of the pieces has now got a footage that can go with it, like an initial sketch, and these are shown below, as raw video clips.

test piece then originating new areas to explore