Pecha Kucha day

So, Pecha Kucha day, after a weekend of trying to understand the brief, and work out how to focus it in the right way for me at the moment, I chose the harder identity reflection, which I know wasn't going to meet the full criteria if we had needed it to be the summative presentation but was what needed to be focused on where I was at and what I identified with in terms of my core influences. The process of building the Pecha Kucha was an interesting one, the deep dives of the blogs and the reading of the critical theories opened up my thoughts to the  frameworks in which I have operated, some being those that I was aware of, and some concepts new. The creation and decision to use the cliched images found as stock footage, didn't quite meet the way in which I wished to communicate, partly because my mind was a tad scrambled but On Monday, I managed to finish the majority but didn't finish the full set, in the past I would have beaten myself up but in the head space I am in, it feels like a good start after a life changing decision while the other life changing stuff keeps happening outside of the college. I am yet to watch back on the video, and I will shortly but I was aware that I wanted to copy the original notes and images down so i can hold onto the thoughts that showed the process, there were gems in there and I feel that I want to develop them further. 

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Lots to think about, having watch ed the presentation I realised I need to be a little bit quieter so I allow others to feedback, rather than justifying! Liz talked about this in the 2nd half of the session when talking about the next project to prepare the proposal and presenation adn the mid semester silent viewing in order to explore how the Art is communicating to the chosen Audience. This spurred my brain thinking. more to follow but essentially it was the integration of VR/ Sound in a space, bringing the outside in, with disruptors. 
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Notes from the original Pecha Kucha Presentation - Bloody hell I waffle... 

Identity
As a long time returning student, time its self has been my teacher, I all these thoughts, have started a deep dive into the identities I carry , where they come from, the implications and the realities of adopting them, and working out if they are still valid. 

So, the social constructs that define us as being these stages, also as I have grown thenb as we are within the capitalist society describe me as labelling for worth, so 
Student, Worker, 

So as a lighting designer – it was high on the excitement value, but the assumption was that it was a lifestyle filled with rebellious and " rock n roll activity – assuming , I was drinking a shagging. 
Some people didn’t get it, they didn’t take it seriously. In essence not taking creativity seriously. It’s a fitting time to look at Art and why Art befuddles people and after all just like we judge and assume with individuals we judge and assume with all things – but it's down to the individual perspective and history. 

Travelling round, A life of movement 

Synesthesia, seeing sound or hearing light. Innate, controlled but a beautiful. 
Thing that I didn’t realise wasn't with everyone. Obviously with me, Lighting was a natural choice, so is being in a music industry where the two collide. 

So these things are for sure:
All of my creative practice, even the education, incorporates movement. This could be passing of time, it could be journeys, it could be progression. Its about the discovery of a new experience, way of looking at the world. 

In recent years , it has manifested as educating others, about, producing their works for them, it has become functional and has fed my little addiction with moving forward by ticking the same boxes but doing it in a different ways. 
Time 
Camino
Dateline
Ghost
Flowing Spring
MOE 001 

Fascination with the history of place, of what secrets it hols, of the meditative process of experiencing space and the responses it brings forth.

https://ethics.org.au/ethics-explainer-aesthetics-what-makes-something-art/

Definitions of Art are constantly changing as humans try to define, evolving from the early thoughts around Art being a thing, tangible and with value generally to a benefactor , western cultural definition`: 

Where as The defenders of art and its unique role in society usually claim art should be valued for its own sake. 

Aesthetic value is not to be valued instrumentally, for its financial value or for its status, or even for what we can learn from it or because it is deemed morally ‘good’. 
It may do any and/or all of these things, or none! 
Art is valuable because it affords an aesthetic experience.

It is an aesthetic, all those things and none,  – even within the constructs of society, we live in a capitalist society, we live in hierarchy and functionality so there will be different gradients of what has Value and what is fundamentally – the division between the Fine Art and Community Art  or socially engaging practices in some spheres create tension as some appearing less valid – this is dependant on the observer personal history, and their constructs on their world, life and the wider world around them. I have to be drawn to 

Art is essentially the affirmation, the blessing, the definition of our existence Friedrich Nietzsche – The Will of Power 

Art s not a thing , it’s a way, Albert Hubbard  1908. 
But for myself, taking ownership at this point in my existence I identify with Duchamps thoughts on it ? 

Duchamp, 1975 What art is, in reality, is this missing link, not the links which exist. Its not what you see that is Art but the gap between.

So in order to progress with this journey,  I have started a deeper dive into the creativity to look for core themes,
 I acknowledge that I have become lazy in my visual arts, choosing to move toward writing as a means to communicate, 

I guess for me my artworks tend to be quite large, and this isn’t always accessible. 

I have looked at the other identities I write last week on our workshop and started asking the question of who defined these, and why? 

Are the actually someone else's reality pushed onto me, or an easy way to keep a balance and do they fuel ways that are no longer healthy or serve a purpose in my world. 

For example, I would identify as being busy, always , but when you delve deeper , it could be said that actually this comes form an avoidance of dealing with the trickier the things in life. A coping strategy, and if that’s the case, maybe deal with it and let it go and see where it leaves. 

It’s like a bit of life laundry, a movement into a balanced and healthier space that allows me to follow and spend that time doing things that make me smile. 

It cliché, but it’s a reality as well. It’s not the midlife crisis, more a fuck it crisis, a stop making excuses, be fearless crisis.

I work quietly, unfortunately , the reinforcement of the previous what is worth harping back to the harsh and cruel and totally devoid of feeling way to buy into the idea that worth  must have value. So therefore it is always measured and it takes effort to move this forward.

 I have purposely never sold a piece and I create ephemeral pieces, when I think about it, maybe through fear of them being critiqued, but they have gone, so maybe its an excuse not to embrace criticism, people cannot place value or no value on something that doesn’t exist. 
Does this make the Art Self indulgent. 
Like some artists that create in an outdoor environment, maybe, maybe it’s more communicating with the earth, a sign of quiet respect, and it does not seek to havre value. 

It cant be reproduced with the same essence – take David Nash. However, I recognise that I recognise it as Art. It is a tangible piece, and therefore is captured in other ways. Filmed, archived and plays on in memory certainly more other Art does. It is the same with music, there in lies the deep attachment to the link. 

So in order to progress with this journey, 

I have started a deeper dive into the creativity to look for core themes,

 I acknowledge that I have become lazy in my visual arts, choosing to move toward writing as a means to communicate, 
I guess for me my artworks tend to be quite large, and this isn't always accessible. 
I have looked at the other ideas in order to progress with this journey, 
I have started a deeper dive into the creativity to look for core themes,
 I acknowledge that I have become lazy in my visual arts, choosing to move toward writing as a means to communicate, 
I guess for me my artworks tend to be quite large, and this isn't always accessible. 
I have looked at the other identities I write last week on our workshop and started asking the question of who defined these, and why? 

Are the actually someone else's reality pushed onto me, or an easy way to keep a balance and do they fuel ways that are no longer healthy or serve a purpose in my world. 

For example, I would identify as being busy, always , but when you delve deeper , it could be said that actually this comes form an avoidance of dealing with the trickier the things in life. 

A coping strategy, and if that’s the case, maybe deal with it and let it go and see where it leaves. Its like a bit of life laundry, a movement into a balanced and healthier space that allows me to follow and spend that time doing things that make me smile. 

It cliché, but it’s a reality as well. It's not the midlife crisis, more a fuck it crisis, a stop making excuses, be fearless crisis.
 
 Fundamental to all of this is my family and most of all my babes. 

Although the eldest is now older that I was when he was born. 
Yesterday he was discussing critical theory and the roles changed when he was helping me clarify my points..
 
My middle daughter – heading to Uni next year, a beautiful souled person, starting to spread her wings, discover her loves and passions, and how for her her journey forward will be similar to that of both her parents, within the music and creative industries, maybe its in the blood but that’s a nature nurture whole bigger subject.

My youngest, has the drive that I possessed, and is crazily competitive and is a sport and movement obsessed athlete, who has the know how even at 12 to navigate the world surrounding her with sensitivity and fiesta, often at the same time. 
Image: 

In my professional world, 
 I am seen as a warrior queen, fighting the good fight, advocating, leading, organising, taking on the burdens of other sand in a sense enabling their lives to be simpler because of it. I am a health and safety geek, 

I am fierce about providing the practitioners of the future the best starts to their career. 
I just do it, I have walked the journey so why be precious about the knowledge gained.
 I have at times been an enabler. 

This not so good, if its pout of balance, it disempowers the individual and invariably, creates a set of expectations that are not for you but are controlled and dictated by you